okay, I get it

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It is important to listen to one's body and give it what it wants - especially if what it wants is for you to stop skimping on your ativan and feed it more of said. We'll see if tonight brings any specialness, but Gracie and I were out like all afternoon and I'm fine. She was he usual terror on the playground, but I was mellow enough to not get stressed as I chased, and the kids there not only had the moxie to keep up with her, but taught me some Spanish while they were at it and got very amused when I called them Maestra. One of the little girls who was there with her mom and played with Gracie a lot apparently lives on our route home. Gracie spotted her on the porch of her house and ran across the street (I freaked and abandoned the stroller to chase, luckily no cars), and it turns out this little girl is just a little older than Gracie, gets speech therapy too, and seems like a good match for Gracie overall. Her mom is also single (she also has an older brother) and seemed very into the idea of playdates and swopping babysitting.

Also on our way home, Gracie spotted a bunch of about 5 older boys (12, tops) playing football, and she ran over and plumped herself down next to one and said hi, and they were mostly cute and tolerant and let her chase after them as they played. The very cute tall blond one even got a hug from Gracie, who clearly has good taste, god help me. She was sufficiently misbehave-y on the walk home (dark by this point) that I had to ground her from any TV until after her bath, so she did her usual 10 minutes of token bath and then out (which is fine by me, really, as long as she knew she was punished and took the punishment - which she did, albeit grouchily). Now, Shaun the Sheep til bed, and I soon to follow - I have eaten a whole ativan and will eat a super advil before bed just in case, so hopefully everyone will be good and tired and sleep well for a change, after such a busy day.